Life is so unfair.

Haven't you heard that so often? Usually, the person who says that is dubbed selfish or ignorant.
Well, I was talking to someone, and we both agreed- life really isn't fair at all.
I'm not going to go into detail about the actual person, but hey, if you're reading this, I think you'll know if it's you or not.

And just when MY life was going mediocre-ly-okay, meaning nothing WORSE had happened in the past month or so, although, it couldn't get that much worse without something really weird happening, I am now officially off Team 1. Yup. Shoved off. Booted off. Given the back of someone's hand. Isolated. Assassinated... Whatever you may call it, it's happened.
I'm really glad that my MVC got a chance to be on team 1, though.
But I still feel horrible because I'm mad that I'm not on the team anymore. The next competition is going to be very, very important for me because I have to prove myself worthy [again]. If I manage to beat Diana and Jack, those two may have to compete for the last spot. There's four total people, by the way. I don't think I can do this... I can't do MATH... My life of MAO is full of careless errors. I've only managed to do well on the competitions/tests that don't really count for the school, like the preseasonal, AMC10, and the Nunn test, which I didn't exactly pass, but I still beat Diana (and Ryan on the preseasonal and the AMC10, which I think is awesome because he hates China and/or does it to annoy us) somehow. Why do I care so much? I should be happy that I even had the chance to be kicked off of team ONE... But I'm not happy at all. I'm just really mad at myself for being so freakishly retarted. I'm sorry for using up the entire post to complain. It's starting to sound like one of my earlier posts. Why do I have to be so selfish? Maybe it's human nature to fight for the best for yourself. I've already used "I" way too much in this post. At least I care about other people. But caring isn't going to take you very far in life. I hate being selfish and trying to do things for ME just so I can succeed in HIGH SCHOOL. Why does it have to be like this? If I were more selfish, I wouldn't have this conscience problem, either. But I don't want to be like that... I'm so confused... Oh well- life isn't fair.

And about "I'M SO CONFUSED!", that's what someone says whenever we stand up to clap for anyone from CHS's MAO who gets first place (including teams), and then everyone else says "THINK PINK!!!!" I don't get it.