Actually, I'm going in December... Got the wrong month for some reason.
So meet me in Orlando after Christmas.
I feel... horrid. The guy who made my friend cry inadvertently made me want to cry, too. Remember when everyone said "No! Don't say that! You have a chance!"? Well.. I don't. Life sucks and the day I want to give up, I find out that if I don't give up then I will be hurt even more. My mind told me that this weekend would be relaxing and I would finish my homework easily and that I could stop thinking about this. But then, someone goes and randomly mentions something, so everything seems to be going backwards now.
I told myself that I wouldn't talk anymore to the guy I like... I've been advised to be great friends with him, but I'm too weak to try and it simply won't work. After today, I know that my decision was probably better in this situation because there isn't anything that anyone can do. We can't control things like this; we can only try to make good decisions with or around them.
If I can't stop crying, it won't make me stop telling you to be happy. It's so hypocritical, I know, but please please please be happy. I am not, so be happy for me and when you want to cry, I will cry for you. Isn't that a good deal?
1 comment:
I know it's hard to "get over" someone. We know it hurts, but it's life. Actually, high school. Life goes on, and we move on.
It's OK to cry and be "weak" and "selfish". It's human nature. But you see, you have friends who care about you and we don't like seeing you cry. As much as we would like to, we can't really just go "poof" and make the hurt disappear, but we're here if you need a shoulder to lean on, for advice and such (esp. since you probably can't go to your parents for that)
I think the best thing for you to do is actually not to be "good friends" with him just yet, because it still seems to hurt you by being around him. Try staying away from him for a bit, distancing yourself for a while. During that time, when you find yourself thinking about him, occupy yourself, with something else. Do homework, play video games, talk to friends, find someone else. After a while, you'll realize that you'll be moving on. And THEN, once you think you're stable enough, then try to approach him again searching for friendship.
We're here for you.
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